MY STRUGGLE TO SURVIVE

When you look down memory lane, there are a lot of experiences that make us what we are. When I was young, my parents used to leave us home with the house help as they go to work. Most of the time I was kept locked in the room so that I could not disturb and up to now I like staying in my room. It sort of became a natural habit for me to keep myself locked up in the room. I grew up with people who loved dissing so that is also kind of a natural habit, getting dissed does not hurt me and in turn I love to diss, let’s just say it’s a way of communication.

People used to make me feel bad about my skin colour and teeth. I was not born with perfect teeth but right now at least I can smile with the help of my artificial white teeth. From the moment when I realized that my teeth were not perfect, my self-esteem went down. I could not talk freely or smile, I was just quiet most of the time. As for my skin colour, I just had to embrace it. My skin was much darker when I was young, I am still dark now but not as dark. I actually love my skin colour now, I learnt how to fall in love with my colour just from thinking about it in a positive way, black is beauty.

For a long time, I never knew my worth or regarded myself as beautiful. I had to fall in love with my skin colour, my teeth, my body shape in order for me to really appreciate myself and build my self-esteem. When you spend a long time with different kind of people, you learn a lot of things. You learn to talk less and listen more, you learn to know who to trust and who not to, you learn to know what to say with the appropriate crowd and how to behave, generally living with different people teaches you a lot.

Life and people have taught me never to put all my trust in a person, people will always disappoint one way or another. Never expect anything from people, just be thankful if they think of you once in a while. Always keep all your friends even the ones you may term as useless, you may need them at some point in your life. People will always talk and criticize whatever you do or say, you just have to be strong and know the right step to take, do what is best for yourself. 

Whatever I have gone through in my life has made me the strong hearted person I am. Optimistic, open minded to everything. I treat people the same way I would want them to treat me. Generally my attitude depends on the way you treat me. Life shapes us to become the people we are supposed to be. It is important to take everything that you experience in your life as a blessing whether good or bad, think of the good outcome of it. God does not give you what you cannot handle. Out of every bad experience comes a breakthrough.